but the thing is, there has to be.

you wish you didn't care so much. you wish they cared at all. you wish you had a better grip, you wish you didn't fall. you wish you had a smoother tongue, a quicker train of thought. you wish you would've said some more, you wish you'd done a lot. you wish that you could get it back, you wish for more control. you wish for things that are too far, you wish you could feel whole. you wish you didn't sit alone, at night with swollen eyes. you wish you would've asked for more, instead of just goodbyes. you wish it didn't feel so hard, what once came easily. you wish for a lot of things, you wish you could be "me."